It's funny how each day passes I have a new emotion about leaving.
Yesterday I couldn't take the smile off my face. This morning...different story. I woke up at 5:30am for no reason-well what I think is no reason. As I laid there I simply tried to clear my mind (despite the many words I wanted to say out loud due to the frustration of being wide awake while it was clearly still dark outside). As I laid there fear began to creep over me.
Along this journey I have learned that it is a daily battle for me to follow the will of Christ. This morning was definitely a battle. I began to think about my bed (for those of you who do not know, my bed may possibly be my favorite place). I started to think about how much I will miss it. I've decided for me to fully go on this walk with Christ, I need to get rid of most of my belongings. I don't want things holding me back and making it easier and easier for me to come up with a reason to come home before my year is over. I'm taking the Elijah approach-without the whole burning everything stuff.
As I had my mini pity party this morning I started to think about this blog I read yesterday and quickly my mood changed. I could summarize it for you, but reading it does it far more justice. I don't know the writer, but I know she helped me remember why I'm doing what I'm doing. God called me and he will equip me for this journey. I just need to let him.
Here is the link for the blog. Please read it. **forewarning- you may need some kleenex**
http://bringlove.in/a-night-on-the-streets-of-addis-ababa/
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