Monday, May 28, 2012

Coffee Shop Thoughts

Memorial day.

It’s not just another day for bbqs (although if we’re being honest, I’m really missing that part)
It’s a day to remember those who have sacrificed their lives for America.

Even though the day is just beginning back home and almost over for me, I am so thankful for this day. Being in Ethiopia puts a completely new meaning to Memorial Day for me. On a daily basis I see poverty and hear stories of people who have no other choice then to live in the conditions they do. They didn’t have troops who fought for freedom. They don’t have a country where they can come and go as they please. They have a country that finds no desire to increase their technology or living conditions. They are a country so rich in water, yet I am on day 24 of no running water at my house. They do not have access to the knowledge or have the will to seek out other options. They don’t have the choice to chose what cell phone company they want to use or which is the best Internet provider, because well, there’s just one.

The government owns them. They don’t have the option to have an option.
Today I am remembering not only the people who gave and GIVE their lives to give me an option. I’m thanking God every second for the gift of knowing freedom (and not just in the worldly sense).

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Just 10 Minutes

As I sit on my bed, in my quiet house with nothing but the clicking of my fingers and rotating of the fan, I can’t help but take a deep long breath. After 24 hours of…well let’s just call it quality time with my shintbet (toilet in Amharic) the last thing I wanted to do was go traipsing through the Kore area all morning visiting people in their homes.

I know what you might be thinking, how can this girl be a missionary? She doesn’t even want to visit people. But stick with me. I promise it’ll get better.

I grabbed my chuck taylors, a bottle of water, threw some PB(pepto bismol) in my pocket,  put on my sunglasses and set out to do my best to put a smile on my face. As we left my compound and made our way for the main taxi road, I felt this immense release of sickness and increased strength. Something I haven’t known for a couple days.

We began our 20 minute walk into the Kore area, or the streets of Jesus as I like to call it. I have never been able to truly picture how it was while Jesus was alive, until I walked down these roads. Children come running and screaming and want to just say hi and touch your hand because you are white; then run away with a smile from ear to ear because the forenjee just said hi and touched their hand. You see lepers lying sprawled out on the ground, walking on their hands or begging for money. At any given moment you can feel the stares of 20 eyes upon you, watching your every move.

As you enter into the “neighborhood” you become extremely aware that you aren’t in Kansas anymore. The homes are about 6x6 foot mud huts with a piece of metal to shield from the rain and sun. The smells of bodily waste running down the walkway, injera cooking and freshly laid donkey “presents” are enough to make you want to vomit. But quietly you cover your nose and breath as little as possible from your mouth.

We made our way from house to house. It wasn’t until the second home that I became aware of this overwhelming joy in my heart, a joy that has never been there. Home visits have always been rough for me. I’m germ-a-phobic and believe not only in God, but bleach and hand sanitizer. Seeing the conditions these people live in makes my skin crawl and completely breaks my heart. A small part of me wants to avoid home visits at all costs because of the reminder of just how absolutely poverty-stricken these people are. But today, today was different. Like I said before I found absolute joy today. As I prayed over a woman who has ovarian cysts, knowing she will never be able to pay to have them removed, I felt the presence of God. I became so overjoyed with watching how God is transforming these women’s lives, how knowing him makes them so addicting to be around. They understand what it means to come around those who are sick and spend time creating relationships. They aren’t in a rush. They take time to appreciate what they do have and glorify God for it.

I fell so deeply in love with this ministry today. So deep in love with how God uses us, ordinary people, to do His extraordinary work in His timing.

Oswald Chambers once said, “It is ingrained in us that we have to do exceptional things for God, but we do not. We have to be exceptional in the ordinary things of life and holy in the ordinary streets, among ordinary people-and this is not learned in five minutes”

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

If you are the sun, I want to be the moon


I’ll never forget that sound. The sound of a crying 2 year old screaming at the top of her pediatric lungs, which seems to pierce the ear drums of anyone in a quarter mile radius. Screaming to be held. Not just held by anyone, but the screams to be held by her mother. The only issue, her mother will never wrap her arms around this little girl, her seven-year-old sister or estranged husband again. Her and her sister are now one of the 16.6 million children orphaned by HIV, this disgusting virus that overtakes your body and quickly turns a cold into a death sentence.

Three weeks ago, I experienced my first Ethiopian Orthodox funeral. I can say that was not something I’ve ever had on my bucket list. I watched for an hour and a half, completely confused at what exactly was going on and completely heart broken at the same time. I watched people come from all over the Korah area to pray over this dead body and beg that she be allowed into heaven. I watched people fall on their faces believing this was the only way she would meet Jesus.

What many of them don’t know is that for the last year she has heard a different way; a free way. As I sat there watching the scene unfold before me, my heart broke. Begging and pleading for eternal life is not what was intended for us as humans. I don’t know if she ever fully embraced grace and mercy and freedom. But what I do know is I am so thankful for the ministry in which God has called me to be a part of. A ministry who believes that transformation of life (and spirit) comes through love, despite what you believe.